Refreshing

It's amazing how refreshing one act of love or two minutes of your time can be. I was reminded last evening of how important relationships are. In the very busiest of times it is so important to cultivate relationships around you. To cherish and honor the people in your court. Life deals all kind of crazy blows, sometimes so painful the wind escapes your body and you feel like you can't breathe. But then in the stillest and loneliest of times the breath of God breathes through a friend or your Pastor or someone who knows the very inner secrets and still loves you. It's at those times that we forget to stop and be thankful. So many times our focus is on the people who hurt us or those who don't "like" us we forgot how important the ones that do "like" us are. I know in my own life a lot of the time my Husband takes the brunt of my outburst. To his credit i am not always the easiest person to deal with I can be very emotional and a bit irrational ( did i just say that out-loud ;) lol ) God has every so graciously showed me over the last month that my Husband is for me and sometimes i need to shut up and Listen ( another thing i probably shouldn't have said out-loud ). In his wisdom i have learned that letting him in and listening is so much easier than trying to deal with all the hurt myself. Wow amazing lesson after almost 14 years of marriage:). I think the most refreshing thing to me is that when i sit in the quiet no matter how much it hurts i get the peace that can only come from the one who really knows my heart and loves me even more. Recently We took a class at church on Spiritual Disciplines, so yes after being a christian for most of my life i finally understand why we are supposed to read our bible, meditate and pray :) woo-hoooo. Practicing these things consistently over the last few weeks has shown me so much about my self that i really wasn't aware of. Emotional me ???? UMMM yes :) Anger um maybe a little:) While i am able to recognize the negative i also am able to see the strengths and have begun to realize why those areas i struggle with are there. The most amazing part is the freedom you feel when you are able to look at yourself and really know who you are. The chains are gone and freedom blows in like a hurricane wind. Does the hurt leave um not all of it but a new skin comes that is tougher and a little less easy to penetrate. Hurt will always be inevitable but God's perfect love and affection makes it tolerable. I am so amazed at some of the revelation God has been giving me over the last month. It's ok to be me even if there are people who don't like me, it's ok to be me even when people you love walk away, it's ok to be me because there will be people who need what God put in me to give. IT"S OK TO BE ME!!!!!!!