Friday, May 21, 2010

It's been a long time.....


I was prompted today to start writing on here again....it's crazy how fast time flies.....it's been two years since i was on here. We have been stretched and grown but God has remained ever faithful. My Grandfather recently passed away which was very hard for me, i loved him so very much and still can't really believe he is gone but he is with Jesus and he's not in pain anymore!!!!! I have been thinking alot about him this week and have cried tears. Why does it hurt so much to lose people i know he is with jesus in heaven and i know he's at peace but it really does hurt alot. I can say with all honesty i don't feel guilt i just feel sad like i want him back, realizing that is very selfish i am forced to say "God forgive me". He was so much like a father to me, in alot of ways he was the only father i really knew. Maybe because fathers day is coming soon, it stirs these emotions. Not really sure all i do know is i miss him very very much. I love you Gramps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!