I dont think this is right :) TARA!!!!!!!

Your Personality at 35,000 Says...

Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking. You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are. Your gift is having a good eye. You take amazing picture and have the natural talent for most visual arts. You are inspired by great thinkers and heroes. You find human accomplishment riveting. You are happy but often stressed out. If you can slow down and appreciate life, you enjoy it a lot more.

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I Die to Live for you !!!!!

This past week Pastor Paul Godowa was at our church for the Sunday morning service and he brought a word that i think left everyone with their mouth open. He talked about how we had to die and Christ had to live in us. I have heard this said so many times but it has never hit me as hard as it did on Sunday. I have to die. When i think about death i think about leaving this world and being in heaven. But the kind of death he talked about was laying down all that was me to be filled with all that is him. I believe through that sermon god gave me a song title " I die to live for you" where the rest of the song is who knows maybe it will come through my death. God has been molding me for quite some time now and he is not finished yet. So to sum it all up i think God is calling all of us "Christians " to lay down us and pick up him. Do i really want to be so consumed with what i want. Someone said recently it was a whole lot of God and a little of me. I want that to be my everyday and for that to happen Debbie has to die. Debbie has to sacrifice and lay down all that she may want or not want and do what he says. My prayer this week is Ears to hear, Eyes to see and lips that speak his words. I will die and he will live in me. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kindred Spirits!!!!!!!

These are our worship leaders and if you have ever seen the movie Anne of Green Gables. They are our kindred spirits and bosom friends. They are leaving and seeking the will of God for their life. It is exciting but so hard to lose them near us. I know our friendship is good enough we are not losing the relationship. But they won't be down the street anymore and that part makes me sad. They have taught us so much about being real and being touchable. They are true genuine people with a definite passion and hunger to worship god. I honor them today because they believed in me when few did. They didn't give up and they kept pushing. We love you guys and you will be dearly missed :) To the best worship leaders and friends we have. Love you Luke and Sam.

How does your Garden grow???

I have one of those devotional books i got for free in the mail and it is awesome. Most often they say you can't get anything for free but in this case, it is packed full of Good stuff. The last two days it has talked about a garden and how to tend it and honestly it has been amazing what i have learned in what some may call a little concept of gardening. So many people feel like they are planted in the wrong place, myself included and this book has helped me to see so much differently. What if i was planted in the wrong place? "Gardens that flourish enjoy the right location, a location chosen so that whatever is planted can bloom to it's full potential. Even before God created the Garden of Eden he had each of us in mind. He made the entire universe his garden with each of us specifically in his thoughts and and on his heart. God knew precisely what mix of talents and gifts he would blend together so that you would bloom in a way different from anyone else. God knew what nurturing you would require, what weeding would make it possible for you to branch out to your full potential. Your lord made you to be beautiful, precious, and cherished. No one else can fill your place in his garden." It goes on to touch on Psalm 139 it talks about how much God knows us and delights in us. My husband said something last night that really made a lot of sense to me, wow amazing how much wisdom is in the word. The steps of a righteous man are ordered so all we are really responsible for is stepping right and left each foot in front of the other. God is responsible for the rest so don't worry about where your going or how you will get there keep walking one foot in front of the other and bloom where you are planted.

A beautiful bride is an amazing thing, you don't ever see that kind of light on every day faces. It is amazing to me how much joy you can see in her face. If we are the church and we are his bride why don't our faces reflect that joy?? I have asked myself this question as my joy has been lost as of late. I have allowed circumstance and people steal the very joy of just loving Jesus. He is my groom and i want to capture the purest joy through just loving him. I want to be able to hear his voice and no one else. While it may seem sometimes people are more significant in our lives than they should be i am choosing to close the door to negative voices in my life or voices that would make me feel less than i am worthy of. I deserve the best because that is what God wants for me. I will press through this very trying time and i will come out on top where God has me first because he is my source and my protector through him i find my beginning and my end. He is my strong tower where i ( the righteous ) run in and am safe. I love to feel the presence and smell the sweet aroma of God all around me. I am so thankful that he has covered me like a blanket with his love. While i may hurt he is there to heal and build back up what others have torn down! Thank you for loving me!!!!!!!

Along for the ride???

Do you ever feel like your just along for the ride??? This picture is hysterical what choice does a dog really have? He goes where they take him and that is it. I think in life it is the same for some people unless we stand up for ourselves and go down the road we want. Today's society is very pushy, more people know what they want and they don't care who they got to step on to get it. So in many ways a lot of us are just along for the ride i feel like it is time for those of us that have been pushed out to stand up and say I do Matter and this ride is stopping cause i want to get off! Make sense to anyone we control the rides we are on. Good or Bad the ride is our choice so today which ride are you on?????

My kids are away at Johnnie's parents and i am lonely. I know we all need a break at times and it is so nice to have one but i miss them so much. I don't know what to do when they are not here. I can't clean anymore than i have been i mean i guess i could dust :) It is amazing to me how fast they grow it seems like yesterday i was rocking them both to sleep at night as babies. I so wish for those days back. I have loved watching them grow, but before i know it they will be grown and gone. I remember as a little kid thinking i can't wait to grow up and get married and now look i just turned thirty four and i have a ten year old and an eight year old. What in the world???? Where did all the years go. I am so glad we are cherishing each other and the kids. We have been with them every step just like my mom was with me and i will never regret it. Are they perfect no but they are good kids and they are mine. I am so thankful for them and can't wait to have them home again :)

I love Wild Flowers!!!!!!!!

I love wildflowers, this picture is so incredibly beautiful just look at it a whole field full of them. I have often considered myself a bit of a wildflower. The past few months have brought about so many changes in my life. Some good some not so good but all i am very sure were necessary. I have been spring cleaning my closet ( like my husband said) over the past few days and wow was it dirty so many cobwebs, so many dreams that needed a good dusting. As i have begun the cleaning process i have discovered something very important about myself. I will never fit a mold, I am who I am and that is OK. As much as i want to feel apart, i will never look at things the same as everyone else. God gave me my own thoughts and hopes. So if i try to conform those to be what everyone else wants. I won't fulfill what he wants me to do. I grow impatient sometimes waiting on the fulfillment. I want to have it right then, but i do believe through all of this God is teaching me how to trust him and how to lean on him. I am a wildflower that god created there are no two flowers that are exactly alike even if it is the number of petals they are never identical. So i am not gonna do things like everyone else. I am gonna be me and do things like me and that is good enough i am valuable to god and to my family. Everyone else has to get in line to smell this flower :) !!!!!!!!